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curtaincalls2014-08-08 05:56 pm
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③ tl;dr on character relationships. first impressions count too!
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WEEK FIVE THOUGH. Okay, first off: he still wants to know how you could live like that, Phoenix. Your room was a disaster. Like...there's messy and then there's the war zone he walked in to. He was a little upset that he killed Yuyuko because she had literally like JUST started growing on him but he gets why Phoenix went after her. Because his choices were the 1000 year old ghost lady or the 17 year old programmer girl. And as much as he seemed to treat the younger players like adults, THERE'S KIND OF A DIFFERENCE WHEN IT COMES TO KILLING SOMEONE. So he didn't really hold that against him it was just kind of a bummer and his plan was actually pretty clever. Especially since he pulled it off while everyone was actually AWAKE AND THERE TO SEE IT. Props to you for that, man.
Maya though...okay, he got what Phoenix was trying to do and he understood that it WAS a good thing. But at the same time it was kind of a terrible thing and it really kind of rubbed him the wrong way. None of it was her fault but she'd been blaming herself since the trial started which he really didn't like. Because obviously he knew who really did it. So of course he liked it even less when Phoenix made her out to be the true culprit. And that's why he initially wanted to vote against letting Maya retire. Because he didn't want her to have to fully accept that guilt, even if it meant she didn't have to participate in the game anymore. Had he just tried to say she was an accomplice, he would have had a lot less problem with it, honestly. Actually, at first that's what he thought Phoenix was trying to do but he kind of just misunderstood because there was so much going on. HE THOUGHT IT WAS GOING TO BE A DEAL LIKE WITH MEI AND HE WOULD HAVE BEEN OKAY WITH THAT but he kind of forgot about the whole "there have to be two victims" thing. Obviously, in the end he ended up going along with it because it WAS in Maya's best interest as far as the game went (but not in the best interest of her mental well being) and it was Phoenix's last wish. And he gets wanting your death to accomplish something and have actual meaning. Just...god why didn't you kill Klavier so that you could have passed her off as an accomplice? HOW DID YOU MISS THAT KLAVIER WASN'T DEAD, GOD.
IIIIIII don't think he knows about what happened between Peko and Phoenix in the graveyard unless Peko told him at some point which she probably didn't. But if he did, he'd be grateful for Phoenix keeping an eye on her and stuff. And telling her about all the DK shit so that he didn't have to because HE HAD SO MUCH OTHER SHIT TO TELL HER ANYWAY, HOLY HELL. And he was touched that Phoenix believed in him even if he had no idea what the hell he was up to with killing Feferi and Chizuru. You are a true blue comrade, Wright, Kuzuryuu is looking forward to working with you from here on out. CANDY APPLE TEAM 4LYFE.
And he'll probably get along stupidly well with Trucy because that's just how he rolls. Befriend ALL the teenage girls.
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Then she killed Eridan and FUCKING FRAMED HERSELF and he was convinced that wasn't going to work at all. He was sure that nobody was going to be stupid enough to fall for Feferi being framed, but then...everybody...did exactly that..... And, obviously, he wasn't going to point out that YOU CAN'T RULE OUT ANYBODY WITHOUT EVIDENCE!! because he wanted Feferi to get away with it. And she did. That ended up being his first wake up call to just how bad his situation as a DK was. Murder doesn't really faze Kuzuryuu much because he's yakuza and he kind of deals with that shit a lot but...the scapegoating thing really shook him up. Like it's one thing to read the rules and see that someone will die regardless of culpability, and then it's another thing entirely to actually see it with your own
twoeyes. Especially given how Ian (understandably) reacted.Even with their conversation in her room after the trial, Kuzuryuu had a feeling that Feferi was a lot more shaken up by what she'd done than she was letting on. Like...jfc she's thirteen and she just killed someone? Granted, he was also thinking about it in human terms because he has no idea just how ruthless trolls are expected to be. (He'd actually probably relate a lot if he knew, now that I'm thinking on it) Anyway, he knows a front when he sees one. While some people thought that her sadness was an act, he was pretty sure the opposite was true. Granted, he also had the advantage of knowing why she DIDN'T retire. So that was why he offered to dance with her that week and part of why he decided to be her guard. Obviously part of that was because they were both DKs but a bigger part was wanting to cheer her up. HE PROBABLY LET HER DO WHATEVER THAT WEEK AND JUST WENT ALONG WITH IT, TBH. She and Nanami got to call all the shots and he was just along for the ride.
She grew on him more and more as the weeks went on, bubbly attitude and all. OBVIOUSLY SHE WAS ONE OF HIS FAVORITE DKS, honestly she was second only to Nanami. Not that he hated Chizuru or anything but 1) Feferi made a grave marker for Peko and 2) SHE DIDN'T SPILL DK SECRETS TO FUCKING KAORU OF ALL PEOPLE. Feferi is also the only person to successfully give him a nickname that he doesn't hate. Koizuryuu forever.
Theeeeeeen week 8 rolled around and ha...hahahaha. Haaaaaaaaa. Yeah. Kuzuryuu really, really, REALLY did not want to have to kill Feferi and Chizuru. Especially since Feferi actually had gotten away with murder and was basically assured her win condition at that point. But he was like 90% sure at that point that at least the win conditions were fake. He never doubted their ability to follow through on the failure ones, but the win ones...not so much. And since Feferi didn't retire, he didn't really have a choice. If he and Chizuru died to retire Nanami, Feferi would STILL have to go that following week. And she definitely wouldn't be able to get away with it since the DKs were exposed and everyone KNEW she'd killed once already. So she'd kill some random person, get executed, and the game would continue on and Kuzuryuu really didn't want to put her in that position. It feels kind of weird to say that he felt killing her was the kinder option, but that's basically how he rationalized it out. In his mind, it was better that the three of them die and accomplish something for the rest of the players AND the hostages. And it was also better that he get executed instead of Chizuru and Feferi. Because if you absolutely have to die, better to be murdered than executed. And better to die trusting your killer than be stabbed in the back. Hence why he asked them the two questions that he did. Because he couldn't outright tell them what he was doing, but he wanted them to die knowing that he wasn't betraying them or trying to hurt them. Which was kind of selfish on his part but THE ENTIRE SITUATION WAS SHIT. But in the end, he did weirdly sort of have everyone's best interests at heart.
Even though the game is over now, he still thinks of all the DKs as teammates. Like...even moreso than he does everybody else. Yeah, everyone is a great big 60+ person team now but the candy apples are kind of their own special tier. It's like he kept trying to tell people whenever they tried to give him all the credit for w8: it was a team effort. Yeah, it was his plan and he all the actual work as far as set up and killing and all that goes, but he literally could not have done it without Feferi and Chizuru. And not just in the sense that he needed them to be victims, but also in the sense that he NEEDED their support in order to go through with it. He NEEDED somebody to believe in him (which apparently Gundam did but he didn't know that so Gundam doesn't count). Without that, he seriously couldn't have pulled this off. Oops I got a little sidetracked from my inital point of "what happens next" there SO TO GET BACK ON TOPIC... All three of the DK girls can count on Kuzuryuu to basically do whatever it is they want/need him to do because he kind of eternally owes them for either killing them or setting them up the bomb. They're a team and they always will be, even after they figure out how to get back home and all go their separate ways. U da best, Fefoo, u his favorite troll.
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For the most part, Kuzuryuu didn't really have any strong opinions on Athena because they didn't really talk much. Which I think might have something to do with their respective needs to be treated like an adult instead of a child, just going off of what I've seen you say on Plurk about Athena and how she treated younger characters vs. adults BECAUSE I HAVE NOT PLAYED DUAL DESTINIES YET. Meanwhile Kazoo wants to be treated like an adult but at the same time he wants friends who are his own age and basically Kazoo is a hot mess who wants to have his cake and eat it too. But he didn't really dislike her or anything, he just never really had an interaction with her that cause him to really bond with her like he did with BASICALLY EVERY OTHER TEENAGE GIRL IN THE CASTLE. He was a little wary of her at first owing to his role as a DK and her bullshit lawyer lie detecting. But that kind of went away when it became obvious that that actually wouldn't be as much of a problem as he first assumed.
It wasn't till w6/7 that he really kind of started to form more of a concrete opinion on Athena. The fact that she was the one to track down and comfort Feferi after the whole smoking room fiasco earned her big points with Kuzuryuu. Because he likes Feferi and she was his teammate and Apollo is a jackass who upset her and Kuzuryuu kind of MISSED MOST OF THAT FIASCO. Then there was Rin's trial though. Her whole not voting suicide plan kind of put him in a weird place where he had to face his own hypocrisy a little bit. Because that was when he'd sort of been considering attacking somebody he knew he had no chance of killing and getting killed in self defense. Because he really didn't want to kill anybody and he EXTRA REALLY did not want to scapegoat anybody. So he was kind of stuck between a rock and a hard place of his inevitable death and just kind of wanting to have some degree of control over it. Because the idea of killing somebody with no intention of getting away with it just to prevent his failure incentive didn't sit right with him at all. So like...in a way he sort of got where Athena was coming from? But at the same time he found it really selfish of her because her dying due to failure to vote helped nobody but herself. It got her out of the game so she didn't have to deal with it anymore, but then it still left everybody else stuck. Plus, she'd proven herself to be a fairly smart and capable young woman so like...that's one less person to help them try and find a way out of this? So yeah, he really probably was the worst person to try and help her with that whole thing because he was trying to come from two different angles at once and failing miserably. But he's glad somebody with better people skills than him talked her out of it.
Then came the report, and while it was nice that Athena took it from the angle of "we need to help these four instead of killing them or something" he was kind of annoyed that she didn't...really seem to have a plan for how to DO that. Granted, nobody did beyond Apollo's stupid "let's have a no kill week!" plan which obviously they couldn't do? SO AT LEAST HE WASN'T AS IRRITATED WITH HER AS HE WAS WITH APOLLO. Like he wasn't thrilled that she was saying one thing and then not following through with it, but at least she was trying to make an effort to understand their position and she wasn't suggesting things they obviously couldn't do.
She kind of dropped off his radar again until after he died. He was really touched by the whole pajama party thing? Mostly for Nanami's sake but he also just thought it was nice that somebody was trying to do something to keep everyone's spirits up. ALSO ROW ROW FIGHT THE POWAH. Then she wound up dead, which he was initially kind of miffed because HE DIED SO YOU FUCKERS COULD HAVE A NO KILL WEEK and he seriously thought at first that one of the other players killed her. Because he kind of thought that there really WAS a true mastermind thanks to that dumb trivia question about the host's name. He just wasn't sure if it WAS the true mastermind who did it or if the true mastermind was set up or if it was just somebody trying to expose them or wtf was going on there but it all worked out in the end. One the one hand: he feels kind of bad for her because she totally got the short end of the stick. But at the same time, he feels like she should be proud of the fact that they killed her because she pissed them off. Be...cause he's Kuzuryuu and he's weird like that.
He might try and get to know her a little better from here on out SINCE THEY'RE GOING TO BE STUCK HERE FOR A WHILE and she's really not so bad. She's okay in Feferi's book and he's pretty sure she's okay in Nanami's because of the whole AI thing and Athena's love of technology and that's good enough for him, really.
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Okay so obviously Kuzuryuu didn't remember who he was until he died and then he was kinda like "no wonder they made me dress up like that fucker, it's because we know each other." And of course some of his classmates were involved in this shit in other rounds. Of course. That's just their luck! He kind of vaguely wondered what happened to Gundam and Sonia in their game and afterwards (especially with Kanaya, Annie, and Rapture in the graveyard) but with everything that happened in the game after his execution, their fates kind of took a backseat for a while.
THEN GUNDAM SHOWED UP AS THE HOST. Which I was fully expecting but Kuzuryuu definitely wasn't. He'd figured out that Kaoru was an inside man but he hadn't really stopped to think about the possibility of the host being one as well. And he especially wouldn't have guessed Gundam because, like he told Yuyuko, Gundam was not...subtle enough to pull that off for an extended period. If Gundam had been the host the whole time, HE'S FAIRLY SURE HE WOULD HAVE REALIZED IT THE MINUTE HE GOT HIS MEMORIES BACK. Sorry, Gundam, but your subtlety and acting abilities are not the qualities Kuzuryuu has faith in. That being said though, after he got over the shock of NOBODY EXPECTS GUNDAM TANAKA, he was actually really relieved. Because while he had faith that Kaoru wanted to wreck the game as badly as he did, Kaoru was still largely an unknown. Gundam, however, was someone he knew he could trust unless something REALLY drastic had happened during s47. Which didn't seem to be the case because Gundam was still...very much Gundam, as far as he could tell without actually talking to him himself. So he felt a lot better about their chances in all this since Gundam was involved. Especially since that also meant that Sonia was probably involved in some way that was yet to be made apparent. And Sonia has survivor-tier trust. Granted, he still worried because EVERYTHING WAS TRYING TO KILL THEM and if they made so much as one wrong move or luck wasn't on their side, they'd all be screwed.
That fucking note though...I'm so glad that was Gundam and not the producers because that just made the whole thing even better. And I'm so glad Stiles told Kuzuryuu that was the case because he had such an inflated ego over the note. He did feel bad about the murder, even though it was for the greater good but at least he had that one thing that he could feel good about. HE TOTALLY STUCK IT TO THE PRODUCERS. HAHA. WHO THINKS TOO HIGHLY OF HIMSELF NOW, HUH?? THAT'S WHAT YOU GET FOR TELLING FUYUHIKO KUZURYUU WHAT TO DO. But it was Gundam all along. Which he was touched by! Because there were plenty of other people he could have given that information to. Obviously that meant Gundam not only trusted him but thought that he was actually capable of doing something. Which was honestly an even bigger deal than just trusting him. Because prior to murder island/castle, Kuzuryuu really didn't have a lot of people who believed in him and his abilities. His sister was always the more capable one, and everyone in the family knew it to the point where a lot of people wanted HER to be in charge instead of him. And even Peko was like "yeah but he's too soft for this. I believe in him, but he really isn't cut out for this life." So having someone (who wasn't his sister) take a leap of faith on him like that was actually a BIG DEAL? Not that he'd ever admit it to Gundam, but it really did mean a lot.
Though he still hates being called predictable and he can't help but feel that he DID sort of get played there. Since he thought he was doing the opposite of what the producers wanted. Which technically, he was! But since the information never came from them in the first place, in a way he felt like he ended up being a pawn after all. But confronting Gundam about it actually helped. Because putting it as "you only needed information" made it clear beyond a shadow of a doubt that he was just trying to nudge him in the right direction, not outright tell him what to do. And that made it seem more like his plan was his own after all and not Gundam having called exactly what he was going to do. BUT HE STILL CAN'T ADMIT THAT HE WAS TOUCHED BY THE WHOLE THING. It's not like he appreciates what you did, b-baka! And he's not quite sure what to make of the whole MAYBE ONE DAY I WILL ACKNOWLEDGE YOU AS A RIVAL thing. Because as much as he trusts Gundam, he still has a ways to go when it comes to understanding him because Gundam Tanaka is an enigma shrouded in oddities wrapped up in a dumb scarf. so he's kind of simultaneously like "you dumbass" and "wait this is a good thing, right?"
That being said, he's going to spend a fair bit of time on the base trying to get to know Gundam better. Because even when this is all over and everyone gets to go back home, the two of them are going to be stuck together. And they'll still have stuff to do when they get there! Getting back home is JUST ANOTHER GODDAMN BEGINNING FOR THE DANGANS. Will they ever get a chance to rest? We just don't know but the answer is looking like a pretty solid "no" for all of the foreseeable future. BUT LET'S GET HOPE SHARDS, TANAKA, COME ON. WE CAN'T LET HINATA BE THE ONLY ONE WITH FULL STARS
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And things more or less stayed the same over the next few weeks. Despite being okay with Sebastian, he wasn't really going to go out of his way to befriend him or anything. IT FEELS LIKE A JOKE TO SAY THAT IT'S BECAUSE SEBASTIAN ISN'T A TEENAGE GIRL BUT...THAT'S MORE OR LESS WHAT IT BOILS DOWN TO. While Kuzuryuu wants to be treated as an adult, he doesn't necessarily want to befriend adults. It's just kind of a different dynamic for him that I'm having trouble actually putting into words. BUT ULTIMATELY IT'S KIND OF IRRELEVANT SO MOVING ON...
THEN THE REPORT HAPPENED. And I guess the first thing you have to understand about that is that Kuzuryuu was under the impression that nobody was even remotely suspicious of them LMAO. (I was convinced ooc'ly that SOMEBODY had to be because they were really fucking obvious but Kuzuryuu was another matter entirely) He thought that SURELY if someone had caught on, they would have brought it up by now. And he didn't think that anybody had any reason to believe that a DK group existed in the first place. He was a little worried when the smoking room blew up but...even then, NOBODY FUCKING SAID ANYTHING? So he figured they were still in the clear and people had managed to accept some other explanation. So Sebastian's report actually did surprise him! Had it happened much earlier in the game, Kuzuryuu probably would have reacted more like what I think Sebastian was expecting? a.k.a.: loudly and with vehement denial. But Character Development was a thing and he very clearly had a different reaction.
By the time Sebastian exposed them, Kuzuryuu had already more or less come to terms with the fact that being a DK meant that he wasn't going to survive the game. Which was something I think nobody really picked up on, but over time he did stop saying things like "I'm gonna win this game" or "I'm not gonna die here!" Because after a while, it became obvious that he wasn't. Because he knew that even if he managed to off somebody (which he didn't want to do but knew eventually he'd have to), he wouldn't be able to scapegoat a second person. That being said he WAS mad that Sebastian outed them? Especially since he made it clear that he wanted to kill all of them and obviously didn't really care what sort of situation the DKs were in. (this was why he was kind of snippy with Sebastian during that origami thread, if that wasn't obvious HAHA) But he couldn't really...do anything. Because he wasn't allowed to admit to it, otherwise he'd break the DK rules and get his failure incentive. But he knew that if he tried to angrily deny it, that'd basically be the same as confirming it. And since that was when he was kind of on this slow roll down despair hill ANYWAY he just really didn't have it in him to react like that. So really all he could do was kind of try and avoid the issue and hope that everybody he actually cared about didn't start hating him because of this. And just be ineffectually mad at Sebastian forever because he wasn't going to confront Sebastian about it directly and give him the satisfaction of knowing he was right.
I guess mildly related to the report: the demon thing came as no surprise to him, lmao. Like...he wasn't sure WHAT Sebastian was but the fact that he DIDN'T NEED TO SLEEP AND ONLY EVER ATE AT DINNER made it really obvious that he wasn't human. Kuzuryuu didn't particularly care what he was though because like, okay there are aliens and robots and countries and shit, whatever you are barfstain, you'll fit right in. This was why he was never as suspicious of Sebastian as he was of Kaoru. Especially after the crime family thing came out he was just kinda like "okay well that's why you know so much weird murder shit, occupational hazard." And beyond that, he thought Sebastian was actually really obvious and not at all subtle, whereas Kaoru WAS ACTING LIKE A DOORMAT AND TRYING TO GET IN EVERYONE'S GOOD GRACES SO CLEARLY HE WAS HIDING SOMETHING. So that's why Kazoo and all the DKs focused on Kaoru and not he, demon Sebastian.
Then there was week 8. Oh week 8 you were a thing and was the point where Kuzuryuu had the most feelings about Sebastian...nearly all of them conflicing with one another. He was basically 100% positive that Sebastian had SOMETHING to do with Apollo's bluff. While most of his ire was directed at Apollo for that, there was definitely some set aside for Sebastian as well. Part of him kind of wished that Sebastian could have been a viable suspect for that case JUST TO KIND OF JAB BACK AT HIM IN A WAY but not to actually attempt to scapegoat him or anything just to maybe knock him down a few pegs. At the same time he was mad though, he actually started to feel grateful for what Sebastian did. Because outing them had actually been the turning point that started putting them on the course to wrecking shit. As for the trial itself, Kuzuryuu basically thought Sebastian was a moron throughout all of it. LIKE I SAID, CONFLICTING HIS OWN OPINIONS HERE since he'd spent basically every week leading up to this thinking Sebastian was fairly intelligent. And he still thought? But at the same time just...you motherfucking moron. Because at first he didn't seem all that suspicious of Kuzuryuu (I'm not sure if that was just him hiding it or if he legit didn't think he was behind it, it was hard for me to tell), then he pulled that shit on Nanami, and THEN he had Kuzuryuu's motivations COMPLETELY ASS BACKWARDS. He was actually really offended that Sebastian even dared to suggest that he was acting on the producer's guidance. Which is why he snapped like he did...wow I feel like I'm repeating myself here. Did I say this at some point on plurk? I probably did. Anyway, he died in this weird state of grateful yet pissed at Sebastian which ended up just kind of like...negating itself out into neutrality.
He was actually glad that Sebastian didn't die come week 10. Because he was a very valuable asset as far as surviving literal murder castle went and Kuzuryuu perceived him as another one of the ones who were most strongly #WRECK SHIT #DOWN WITH THE PRODUCERS #DESTROY THE CASTLE 2K14, along with himself and Kaoru. Like...not that everyone didn't want to wreck shit, he just felt that the three of them had a slight edge given their personalities and the fact that he and Kaoru had actually already DONE SHIT towards that end. And then team decapitation did their thing and he helped save Nanami and that was all Really Awesome.
I'm not...honestly sure how things would go from here on out as far as being stuck on the base for who knows how long goes. I FEEL LIKE KAZOO AND CIEL MIGHT...MAN IDK EITHER GET ALONG SWIMMINGLY OR HATE EACH OTHER'S GUTS but I'm really not sure as far as Seabass himself goes. They're all comrades now in his mind, but Sebastian is far from one he has a strong bond with (which I'm sure Sebastian doesn't mind at all). They're never going to be best bosom buds or anything but Kuzuryuu doesn't hate him and he does sort of have some respect for him and some gratitude mixed in there. Maybe the yakuza siblings and the Kuroshit duo can team up and launder money or something. They can be team organized crime and do a bunch of seedy shit that nobody else has to know the details of.
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I think what's really the saddest thing in all this though is the fact that Kuzuryuu was a DK. Because had he NOT been one, things would have gone very, very differently between the two of them. Because while his first instinct with Peko was always going to be IMMEDIATE DISTRUST/WARINESS and MUST PROVE THAT I AM A BIG TOUGH YAKUZA WORTHY OF MY TITLE, had he not been a DK, he probably would have gotten over that eventually. Also, their alliance would have lasted a heck of a lot longer (possibly until the end of the game, depending on how their relationship went) had he not been a DK. Honestly, might have ended up turning into a dangerous yakuza team up and it would have been beautiful and now I'm suddenly sad that THAT didn't happen either. Buuuutttt...unfortunately he was already in cahoots with the DKs when Peko asked him to be in cahoots with her so like...he went into their alliance with every intention of using her to the DKs' advantage in some way. Had she been a suspect when one of the DKs went, he absolutely would have thrown her under the bus and let her get scapegoated. THIS DID ACTUALLY BOTHER HIM. Like he couldn't help but hate himself for approaching the situation like that, but at that point in the game he was trying very hard to act the part of a proper DK because he had completely deluded himself into believing they stood a chance of winning. And that they were a big, scary DK force just like the Producers OBVIOUSLY WANTED THEM TO BE. So...Peko really made a huge mistake in coming to him at all, especially since he DID end up covering her ass so early on. Because he ended up using that to justify himself. She owed him so it's okay if he takes advantage of her a little bit for the DK's favor! She's yakuza anyway, she'd understand, those are just the breaks sometimes! So...he spent like a week aggressively pushing her buttons to try and get her to murder a dude for her young master. WHICH, AGAIN, HE...REALLY, REALLY, REALLY WAS BOTHERED BY. Because even if he didn't have a person like Peko in his life, that whole setup still really bothered him for reasons he couldn't wholly explain. More than it should for someone who has no direct experience with that sort of thing. So even before the truth came out, he sort of hated himself a little bit for using that particular button but...again. He was incredibly delusional at that point. The DK thing ended up feeding into his position-related insecurities in the worst way possible is basically what happened there. HAD HE NOT BEEN A DK? He honestly would have spent that week trying to talk Peko out of murder, oddly enough. Because she would have been his only ally and like hell was he losing his ONE ally that early on. AND SHE STILL OWED HIM AND LIKE HELL WOULD HE LET HER OUT OF THAT BY DYING. So he proooobably would have tried to push the "okay, I know you want to do this for your young master but there's always the option of double murdering later" angle. That or the "your young master probably wouldn't want that sort of protection if he has any self-respect." BECAUSE HE REALLY THOUGHT THAT MOTIVE WAS STUPID JUST...no. It's a good thing Peko failed to get away with it he would have been SO MAD if she had and the incentives did actually end up being legit. SO BASICALLY...Kazoo being a DK was the worst thing for their CR and it kept him from trusting/interacting with her the way he should have.
all through the trial and up to Peko's execution, Kuzuryuu actually didn't really feel THAT BAD about what he did. He hated what it was he took advantage of but like...he wasn't torn up over the fact that Peko was about to die. He wasn't attached to her at all so it was just kinda "ah yes, ty for killing that Freud guy so hopefully none of the DKs will have to go twice! Sorry it had to be like this, but maybe you were in my debt anyway." BUT THEN SHE GOT EXECUTED AND BOY HOWDY DID THAT EVER FUCK HIM UP. But it's also what started to snap him out of his delusions so...on some level, it was actually a good thing. But mostly it was terrible. Anyway, he couldn't write that execution off as fake or the Producers trying to mess with him. Because Peko being HIS hitman suddenly made everything make sense. And also it like...almost felt like he would have been insulting Peko in some way if he'd tried to write it off like that. AND HE'D DONE ENOUGH OF THAT ALREADY. So he accepted the truth pretty much immediately and promptly felt like shit because he sure did just push somebody important to him into killing a dude. HE SURE DID JUST INADVERTENTLY USE HIS TOOL AS A TOOL. YOU KNOW. THAT THING HE HATES? So he suddenly went from feeling very little guilt to feeling A WHOLE LOTTA GUILT. And it wasn't even that he blamed himself for pushing her even. Because he knew that, at best, his pushing had only HELPED her decision. There was still a chance she would have decided to do it without his coaxing. What he blamed himself for MORE was the fact that he didn't stop her. Because, like I said earlier: he was fairly sure that he, of everybody, COULD HAVE TALKED HER OUT OF IT IF HE'D JUST TRIED. But he didn't because he cared more about being a "good DK" than he did being a decent person. So that was a HUGE wake up call and he really started to question whether or not he was cut out for being a DK after all. He also swore off trying to manipulate people into murder for the DKs' sake after that. Just...nope. NOPE. HE'S DONE. IF SOMEBODY ELSE WANTS TO DO THAT, MORE POWER TO YOU BUT HE'S DONE.
And uh...then Peko was dead for the rest of the game. And Kuzuryuu was not. And not only that, but he STILL couldn't remember which...actually really kind of upset him. IT WAS ONE OF THOSE HINDSIGHT MOMENTS. HE WAS JUST KINDA LIKE "wow, I'm sorry I bitched about not knowing who that person was, CAN I GO BACK TO BEING IN THE DARK?" But no, he couldn't. So he was stuck in this awkward place of knowing who is important person was but...nothing about them. Or just HOW MUCH he'd forgotten. So he really was pretty torn up over her dying even without all his memories. Which is why he shut himself off from everybody completely for a day. He just needed some time alone to himself to process and to think before he could face anybody else. Getting her sword case was a comfort to him as well for reasons he wouldn't really have been able to explain if anybody had ever bothered to ask. Which is why he took the damn thing with him ALMOST EVERYWHERE...except to the library on week 8. Because he didn't want something to happen to it in the explosion.
SPEAKING OF WEEK EIGHT: THEN KAZOO DIED AND THEY FINALLY GOT TO BE REUNITED. Though he completely and utterly bluescreened because he thought he killed his sister. Ha...haha...HA. Okay but once he got over that...THINGS WERE AWKWARD. Because seeing her again just kicked all his pent up guilt back into existence. Because with everything else that had happened after her death, that kind of took a backseat as the weeks went on. But he also really wanted to remember her so he tore open his bag asap even though he PROBABLY SHOULDN'T HAVE because lord they made him forget so much shit. So much. And that put him in even more of an awkward place because PEKO DID YOU REALLY PULL THIS BULLSHIT TWICE. But luckily what came to the forefront was how much he'd missed her both on the island and in the castle so all he could do was just cry and hold her until she said something. And...that something promptly pissed him off but...there you have it. You tried Peko. He got over it pretty quick though when she said she wanted to stay by his side and NOT BE A TOOL because holy hell HERE'S THAT THING HE'S WANTED FOR AS LONG AS HE CAN REMEMBER. IT FINALLY HAPPENED. SOMEHOW. HALLELUJAH PRAISE YAKUZA-JESUS.
The fact that she couldn't remember her own execution was just one more thing to add to the list of "Shit That Bothered Him A Lot Concerning Peko". Because he...felt bad not telling her the truth about what happened to him. But at the same time, he knew what her reaction would be if she knew that she was the one who'd blinded him. So he decided to blame it on Monobear which...isn't entirely incorrect, considering he was the one controlling Peko's movements at the time. AND KUZURYUU WAS THE ONE WHO RAN IN THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE SO...REALLY, PEKO HONESTLY HAS THE LEAST BLAME DESPITE BEING THE MOST DIRECTLY RESPONSIBLE ACTION-WISE. If he has his way, she'll never find out that she was the one actually holding the sword. At first, he assumed Peko would be right back in a goddamn coma the minute they found their way back home which...he was not happy about but he also wasn't completely torn up over. Because he was sure that once they get back, they'll be able to wake all the coma kids up. So having Peko be such a downer about that really pissed him off. Because it meant that 1) she was giving up, 2) she didn't think of herself as worth it which called into question her earlier statement of not wanting to be his tool anymore, and 3) she didn't believe in him. The last two obviously being the most important here, especially after he LITERALLY JUST KILLED TWO PEOPLE BECAUSE THEY BELIEVED IN HIM. That was so, so, SO important that he finally had people other than his sister believing in his abilities and then here's Peko telling him that there's no point in him trying to revive her. That was kind of a slap in the face. And then it also made him wonder if she was just saying the whole "I want to stay at your side as myself" thing just because she thought that's what he wanted to to hear. Which, he does want to hear! But only if she actually means it. Because if she doesn't mean it and want it for herself then there's no point.
So...overall things are still a liiiiittle rocky right now as far as their relationship goes but they are honestly in a much better place than they would be canonwise. Even with Kuzuryuu sort-of-lying about what happened to his eye. Mostly because Peko is in a much better place since she had all that time AWAY FROM HIM to start developing as her own person. So I do honestly believe that eventually they'll work their shit out and end up at a place where they both want to be which is more or less equals. (Though he'll probably still never allow himself to date you, sorry Peko. YOU CAN DO SO MUCH BETTER THOUGH) But they'll probably still fight with each other because they're both still very stubborn and willing to throw their lives away for the other's sake WHICH THEY NEED TO STOP DOING. But the fact that she probably won't be going back straight into a coma now will probably help them out because that was the biggest thing they were at odds over by the time endgame rolled around. And even if she does, they have Chihiro and he remembers shit about the program and Nanami's a human SO EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT, HE'S SURE OF IT. Dangans got super high school level best end.
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After the first trial, Nanami more or less ordered Kuzuryuu to start behaving himself and play nice with the other kids because THERE WAS ONLY SO MUCH THE DKS COULD DO TO PROTECT HIM AND HIS DAMN MOUTH. So he kind of started trying to make amends with Maribelle. Sadly, it wasn't because he genuinely WANTED to make amends or get to know her better. He still had no intention of ACTUALLY befriending anybody, especially outside of the DK group, and his plan was basically to just fake it. Which...didn't end up panning out because Kuzuryuu just doesn't have that sort of thing in him. But he felt like...as long as he and Meribelle very obviously did not get along then he could never even consider her as a target because it would be too risky. So the plan was just to start being civil to her so that if the opportunity to kill her presented itself, he could actually take it. Yeah he...totally bought into this whole DK thing for like the first two weeks. THEY WERE A FINELY-TUNED MURDER MACHINE AND THEY WERE GOING TO KILL ALL Y'ALL AND WIN THIS GAME SO HARD. IT WAS GOING TO BE GREAT. [laughtrack plays] So that was his plan and that was why he initially started watching his tongue around her and actually gave her the time of day. TOO BAD HE ACTUALLY CAME TO GENUINELY ENJOY TALKING TO HER, that is totally what ruined his plan and had nothing to do with the fact that he is ill-suited o being a DK. That conversation they had in the library about Lissa was kind of the turning point in a really strange way. Because that conversation didn't do anything to make him like or respect her, what it did was make her seem very human. He wasn't fully aware of it and like hell would he have acknowledged it if he was, but basically it made him want to like...I'm going to say "counsel" her, just because I can't think of a better word right now. But he saw her overprotectiveness as kind of a bad thing and he wanted to try and help her stop thinking like that because that sort of mentality isn't healthy for anybody involved. WHICH HE WOULD HAVE KNOWN FIRST HAND IF HE HAD ONLY REMEMBERED PEKO. But alas...
Team Autopsy just further helped things because that proved that Maribelle was ACTUALLY INTELLIGENT AND USEFUL, which are both traits that Kuzuryuu likes. Maribelle actually has a lot of traits that Kuzuryuu likes, which is something he gradually started to pick up on as he talked to her more and more. HE STILL THOUGHT SHE WAS TOO SNOOTY FOR HER OWN GOOD BUT NOBODY IS PERFECT, HE GUESSES. He actually felt kind of guilty when he talked to her the first hostage week. Because he was only pretending to be worried, while Maribelle...wasn't. Since his sister was also his DK incentive, she couldn't die as a hostage so he knew a few hours after the motive was announced that she was safe. But if he didn't at least SEEM worried, he would draw suspicion. So he had to pretend, which just made him feel like shit when he was faced with genuine worry from somebody else. ESPECIALLY from somebody who has protectiveness issues. But in spite of this, he did try to get her to open up about it with him thinking that would help her work through it. Which was honestly one of the bigger signs of how Peko's death had impacted him. Had this motive come into play before Peko went, he likely would have tried to subtly nudge Maribelle towards murder. Because that was part of the DKs' game plan so none of them would have to go more than once. BUT AFTER WHAT HAPPENED TO PEKO WHEN HE PULLED THAT BULLSHIT ON HER, HE SWORE IT OFF. So Maribelle ended up getting the exact opposite approach of what Peko got. SO ANYWAY, suffice it to say, his plan to fake friendship completely backfired. He got attached and instead of making her a viable target, she actually wound up becoming an impossible target. Maribelle had every right to be completely unworried following Sebastian's report.
WHICH...SPEAKING OF. LET'S TALK ABOUT THAT. Or well, first let's talk about MARIBELLE BARGAINING FOR A CLUE ABOUT THE MASTERMIND. HAHA. HA. Kuzuryuu was impressed with that, but he would have been much MORE impressed had he not been a DK. But, since he was, obviously he was very worried about what that clue was going to be and what was going to happen to them. So his goal that week was to make himself as useful as possible so that he'd be on the popular list again. Because if he knew what the clue was, maybe he would be able to throw everyone off track so they wouldn't be able to figure out it was Nanami. So he was stuck in kind of this weird place of "damn you go, Maribelle" and "GODDAMMIT, MARIBELLE WHY DID YOU DO THAT." Luckily, the clue didn't point at Nanami so he figured they were safe and he wouldn't even have to try and twist the truth or something. He kind of figured the clue was useless SINCE HE WAS POSITIVE THEY HAD EVERYONE COMPLETELY FOOLED. Only they didn't and Apollo and Sebastian blew their cover. And that was really the first time since they'd arrived that Kuzuryuu was genuinely scared. Not because he thought people would kill them, though, but because he was worried what they were going to think of him. Maribelle, especially.
He was convinced that everyone would look at that list and immediately think that he'd been trying to play them all so that he could kill them more esily. You know, like he ORIGINALLY PLANNED TO DO? Yeah, that. Because, oh yeah, he's a criminal, remember? And he was such a douchebag in the beginning, clearly everything has been an act because that's the sort of people the yakuza are. This castle was the first time he'd ever made friends and he was positive that his involvement with the DKs was going to completely ruin that. With Maribelle especially, specifically BECAUSE they didn't get along in the beginning. He expected her to yell at him, cut off ties with him completely, and never trust him again. But much to his surprise, she didn't. She even seemed to believe him OVER Sebastian and Apollo, which he never would have expected in a million years. Because that's just not how people treat him, in his experience. PEOPLE ARE SCARED OF HIM OR DISTRUSTFUL OF HIM OR BOTH. So the fact that she still trusted him, even when there was really no defense he could give, was SUCH A VERY GOOD THING. And he really did want to tell her the truth but...he couldn't. Because if he revealed the group, they'd all fail. So all he could do was keep denying it and just...make sure he never did anything to genuinely betray that trust. Because he felt terrible about the fact that she trusted him this much and he couldn't even tell her the truth.
So by this point, Maribelle managed to work her way to his closest friend outside of the DK group. In all honesty, she was on the same level as the other regular DKs. Nanami was very obviously a special tier all her own at the very top, which nobody stood a chance of toppling. This is quite an achievement when you consider the fact that she was PRETTY MUCH AT THE BOTTOM INITIALLY. What a turn around. She even managed to get a single doki out of him. NEVER FORGET THE LONE DOKI. Just the one. No but in all seriousness, she was very important to him. Even if they still didn't (and probably never will) see eye to eye on how Kuzuryuu should present himself. He had really mixed feelings on that, honestly. On the one hand: he knew that Maribelle thought she was doing a good thing and the cultural barrier made it nigh impossible for her to understand why the way he acts is actually correct. But on the other: she was trying to change him. And while he knew there were some things about himself that he needed to change, he felt like his language was kind of a very superficial thing to be concerned about. So it...sort of hurt him a little but not really? Like it wasn't a huge deal but it he couldn't help but think "okay, why am I not good enough as-is?" sometimes. BUT IT WAS LARGELY IGNORABLE IN THE GRAND SCHEME OF THINGS. Because he knew she wasn't doing it out of malice or anything. THE CULTURE CLASH WAS TRULY TO BLAME HERE.
And uh...then he did the thing. And got himself executed. He fully expected Maribelle to hit him for that stunt. Obviously that wasn't enough to get him to stop, because he knew it was the right thing to do. Even if it was completely terrible. Like I said before, Maribelle was second to only Nanami in Kuzuryuu's eye, which is why he entrusted Nanami's safety to her after he died. There was literally nobody else he trusted enough with that duty. And though it doesn't really seem like much, it was actually a BIG DEAL for him. Because up until that point, he'd kind of made himself to be Nanami's protector in his mind. And, to him, that was a very important job, because Nanami was Important. So the fact that he sort of tried to pass his duty along to Maribelle is a sign of just how much he actually trusted her. Because, if he were alive, he wouldn't have let anybody else have that responsibility.
FROM HERE ON OUT, things will probably just continue much the way they have, to be honest. Though he does still want to try and help Maribelle get over her overprotectiveness thing as far as Lissa is concerned. And to help Lissa herself because he feels like they have some stuff in common and now that he has all his memories back HE IS JUST FULL OF WISDOM HE IS READY TO IMPART ON PEOPLE WHO WILL HEAR IT. And he thinks both of them need it.
Kuzuryuu you are not the protag, stop it.And when they finally manage to leave and all go back home, Maribelle will be one of the ones that he misses the most. But he has stuff to do back home so he couldn't possibly go to any other world AND HIS WORLD IS SHIT SO HE COULDN'T POSSIBLY ASK ANYBODY TO COME WITH HIM. But he's really not looking forward to having to say goodbye. NOT THAT HE'LL MISS HER OR ANYTHING, B-BAKA.(no subject)
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Kuzuryuu was pretty much 100% positive that Peko had killed Freud, which was why he objected so strongly to Austria's thing about suspects. Had it been literally anybody else, he still would have objected, but he wouldn't have been nearly as in her face about it as he was. Because he knew her background and the fact that she was pushing so hard for everyone to let her "help" just convinced him all the more that she was guilty. As far as he saw it, she had either realized there was evidence somewhere that she'd overlooked or she was trying to run a diversion so they'd run out of time. And given what his own team had managed the week before, he knew that that sort of tactic absolutely works. And he really did not want Peko to get away with this because he was so wrapped up in the idea of the DKs "winning". And if they were going to win, that meant that everybody else had to lose. At least, that's what it meant in his hyper-competitive mind, NEVER MIND THAT THERE'S NOTHING THAT SAYS THEY ALL LOSE IF ANYBODY ELSE GETS AWAY WITH MURDER? Just at that point Kuzuryuu had deluded himself into thinking that the DKs (especially himself) were everything that the Producers expect that group to be. Or what they expect them to be under more normal circumstances, anyway. He hadn't quite caught onto the fact that their group wasn't picked to be a ruthless group of killers yet. But anyway, Austria trying to champion for Peko just gave him another reason to dislike her because you dense bitch, how can you not see that she did it?
But then Peko was executed and everything was terrible. But it helped Kuzuryuu get over himself as far as Austria goes. Because here they were: having a civil conversation, even after he'd repeatedly treated her terribly and she'd talked down to him. It's possible after all! And the fact that she gave a shit about Peko meant a lot to him because her whole trial left Kuzuryuu with a LOT more guilt than he was expecting. Like enough for him to start questioning just what he was doing as a DK and if he was really cut out for it after all. But he was glad to see that people actually cared about her even though she would up being a murderer. Because even though he couldn't actually remember her, he knew enough about her position to know that that was probably something she didn't have back home. Had she died back home nobody (save for hopefully himself) would have mourned her. She wouldn't have even had a marker for people to bring flowers TO, in all likelihood. So yeah, big points for Austria there, which lead to Kuzuryuu putting forth an effort to try and patch things up. In...his own way of never admitting that he fucked up and just changing his behavior a little bit. He didn't really go out of his way to watch his tongue around Austria as much as he did Maribelle but that was because Austria didn't get on his case as much as she did. He did curb it a little bit though and he tried to be less rude.
BAKURA'S TRIAL THOUGH. GOD JUST...okay so Kuzuryuu was pissed at Bakura for a lot of reasons when the truth finally came out but the thing he was most pissed off about was the fact that he bought into the framing trick. Or well, the unintended part of it because he obviously knew that Feferi wasn't responsible for this. Because not only would she have told them beforehand, SHE WOULDN'T HAVE KILLED ANOTHER DK?? So he knew it had to be Spain or Bakura, and he thought that Spain had more to benefit off of by framing Feferi and couldn't understand at all why Bakura would have done that because he didn't know about the secret groups. SO HE WAS COMPLETELY CONVINCED IT WAS SPAIN AND HE ABSOLUTELY WOULD HAVE VOTED TO HANG HIM HAD AUSTRIA NOT DONE THE THING. And her interrogation really just had him kind of in awe? Like he honestly kind of doki'd over it in a completely non-romantic way because he's a goddamn weirdo who likes to see people assert themselves over others and really stick it to 'em. So that really got him to see her in a different light. Not only did he see her as a caring individual now, but he also saw her as insanely competent. And those are both traits that he really values/respects/admires in a person, though he's more obvious about admiring the former than he is the latter.
Then she found out about his secret sweet tooth and she...DIDN'T? LAUGH AT HIM? FOR IT??? Which he did not expect at all, because obviously there's a REASON he kept that hidden from people. Because it's not something that a tough guy should like and he tries SO HARD to project an image of manly toughness. So he was confused why she seemed to feel like that was something she had to hide too because...she's a woman? It's okay for girls to like sweet things? He couldn't wrap his head around why people would judge her for something like that. But the fact that she not only didn't laugh at him but also indulged him and didn't tell anybody else about it just continued that upward trend in his opinion of her.
Then everything changed when the demon butler attacked. Okay well no, it wasn't quite that dramatic of a change BUT KUZURYUU SURE WORRIED THAT IT WOULD BE. He was convinced that everyone would immediately change their opinion of him back to something even WORSE than it was when this whole mess started. Because there was no way they wouldn't believe that a guy like him was just trying to play them and hadn't actually meant anything that he'd said. Which...in the beginning, he kind of HAD been trying to play them. Nanami had told him that he needed to start acting nicer or else he was going to wind up dead in some way or another. There was no way the DKs could protect him from being Ian 2.0 if he wasn't careful. So, initially he had been doing it more out of self-preservation than anything genuine. But that very quickly changed because Kuzuryuu really is a caring person way deep down and he did genuinely come to like a lot of the people in the castle, Austria included. So it became harder and harder for him to keep himself emotionally distant from them. So even though he'd abandoned that for more genuine friendships very early on, he was sure that the report was going to make it LOOK like it had all been a lie. And considering just how rocky of a start he'd had with Austria, she was one that he was incredibly worried about having turn on him. He could all to easily see it happening. But...then the opposite happened. Not only did she NOT turn on him, but she turned out to be the one with the strongest desire to help them.
When she invited him over for secret cake party times, he was fully expecting the conversation to eventually turn to his DK involvement. Maybe she mistakenly thought he would be able to say more in private, or be able to confide his secret in ONE person as opposed to admitting it in front of the whole group. Obviously, he could do neither of these things but he still went anyway because free cake who the hell is going to turn that down? Oh yeah and also he liked Austria too, there was that. So he was suspicious when he showed up and was pretty much just waiting for that inevitable shift. But when it finally DID come, it wasn't quite what he expected. And he probably should have been a little more concerned about her wishing she could help him with "what you struggle with." Which, he absolutely knew she meant his DK involvement there and not the trivia. But really didn't worry about it as much as he SHOULD HAVE. But hey, hindsight is 20/20 and the minute Austria showed up on the suspect list, he knew what she'd done.
That trial ended up being the absolute worst that Kuzuryuu had dealt with. Or ever would deal with, frankly, even his own trial wasn't nearly as hard on him as Austria's. Because this was nothing like when he KNEW it was Peko, because he didn't care about Peko. This time he KNEW who did it and not only did he like the person and not want to lose them, but they also did it ENTIRELY FOR HIS SAKE. Or so he believed, because he really couldn't see any other reason for Austria to have killed her lover ESPECIALLY GIVEN HER INCENTIVE. So no, it had to be that she wanted to protect the DKs but needed tools and obviously wasn't going to kill a child like Maribelle when she could kill Spain. So he spent basically the entire trial just being slowly consumed by despair because he had no idea what to do. He didn't want Austria to die, especially not for his sake, so he thought his best course of action was to just...not help with this trial and leave it to everyone else. And sit there and come up with ridiculous double-poisoning theories. IDK IF YOU SAW HIS THREAD WITH NANAMI BUT THAT WAS LITERALLY HIS THEORY ON HOW SHE DID IT. He thought she poisoned herself with the slow-acting poison and transferred it to Spain by kissing him because THAT IS COMPLETELY NORMAL AND TOTALLY WHAT PEOPLE DO WHEN THEY WANT TO POISON SOMEBODY. If this had come out publicly, maybe people would have been quicker to believe that he was a-okay with blowing himself up because CLEARLY SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT WITH THIS KID but anyway, Nanami eventually managed to talk him out of it and get him to snap out of it and start helping but...then he ended up being right about the culprit and their motive anyway.
I'm not kidding when I say that Austria blowing herself up was literally the thing that kept him from just having a full on despair-break and going off the deep end. If she had just marched to her execution after that, it would have broken him because her death would have accomplished nothing. She would have died for him and the rest of the DKs for absolutely no reason because they were STILL going to have to go and it was still IMPOSSIBLE for them to get away with it thanks to the report. But no. She had an ace up her sleeve and bought them more answers and went out on her own terms. Which was like Bakura Interrogation ramped up to 11 as far as admiration levels go. THE WHOLE SWEARING LOYALTY TO THE AUSTRIAN EMPIRE THING WAS ALSO BASICALLY NOT MUCH OF A JOKE, OKAY, HE WAS INCREDIBLY ENRAPTURED WITH AUSTRIA AFTER ALL THAT. She just embodied so many of his ideals in her final moments that she almost became some kind of entity as opposed to a person. I'M REALLY NOT SURE HOW TO PUT HIS FEELINGS ABOUT HER BLOWING HERSELF UP IN A WAY THAT DOESN'T SOUND COMPLETELY NUTS. It was almost like...reverent in a way? He eventually did dial it back a notch after she actually died but immediately leading up to and following her death he was just... I don't even know. But I do know that he was all too happy to take her torch and run with it after that.
By...y'know...mass DK suicide. Haha... THIS IS WHAT YOUR SACRIFICE BOUGHT, AUSTRIA. ALL THE PEOPLE YOU TRIED TO PROTECT DYING TO PROTECT EVERYBODY ELSE... Look, he knew you wanted them all to live but, from the beginning, they were never meant to survive. SORRY. But also, NOT SORRY because he knew this was what needed to be done if they truly wanted to break the game. Which (obviously) mattered to him more than his own life did. Thankfully, she wasn't actually THAT mad at him, he's no sure what he would have done if Austria had disapproved of his actions. Like...he really didn't care what anybody else thought because both he and the DKs thought it was the right thing to do, and that's all that mattered to him. But Austria was different because of that elevated, weirdly reverent status he kind of still held her to. I'm really kind of fumbling all over the place trying to explain this and I'm sorry but it's hard to put his feelings into actual words in this case. Because Austria is important to him in a way that he doesn't really even express well IC'ly? Like he still more or less treats her the same but mentally it's a completely different story and it JUST SOUNDS REALLY WEIRD AND VAGUELY CREEPY WHENEVER I TRY AND DESCRIBE IT. I'M SORRY, KAZOO IS JUST REALLY GODDAMN WEIRD. But basically, having her approval (or at least not having her be wholly disappointed) meant a LOT to him. Because he felt like she'd passed on her will to him in her final moments (even if that's not actually what she was doing, that's certainly how he took it) and if he'd disappointed her after that, it would have been The Worst Thing.
As far as now goes, things I guess go back to "normal" until they all manage to go back home. Austria is still kind of on this pedestal of respect, but I can't really say for sure if it's something that people will be able to pick up on or not. Because Kuzuryuu is actually capable of being subtle about some things. But nobody is allowed to talk shit about Austria or hurt her if he has anything to say about it. I ACTUALLY HAD TO JUST...SAY HE HAPPENED TO BE OUT OF THE ROOM AND MISS THAT WHOLE THING WITH STILES BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO JUST RUDELY KIND OF THROW MYSELF IN THERE. Because Kuzuryuu would have been livid and probably would have just straight up shanked Stiles for the stuff he was saying to her and I really didn't want to have to make anybody deal with that. BUT FROM HERE ON, IF SOMEBODY SAYS SHIT LIKE THAT WHERE HE CAN HEAR IT...IT WON'T BE PRETTY. Congrats, Austria, you've managed to get yourself a tiny yakuza attack dog. ANYWAY BACK TO MY ORIGINAL TRAIN OF THOUGHT, he honestly won't really treat Austria herself any differently despite the fact that he thinks this of her? And...weirdly enough he won't be AS upset about never being able to see her again once they all leave and go back home. Like, he won't be happy about it? Just more okay with it, which I think has something to do with the fact that she's a country. He still doesn't understand that whole thing really, but he does understand that they're Different From Humans on some importantly fundamental level. She's had an impact on him that he'll never forget, even after they part ways, but he won't really be sad to say goodbye. ONCE AGAIN: I'M NOT SURE HOW TO EXPLAIN THIS EMOTION HE'S FEELING WITH ACTUAL WORDS, GOMEN.
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